PART ONE: DECISIONS AND DEALING WITH YOUR CONSCIENCE.
Dealing with relationships is hard. Maintaining them is even harder. Relationships with family, friends, loved ones, bosses co-workers basically all of the above can takes seconds to destroy and years to build.
Recently I found my self in situations with people in which I struggled with the decisions I would ultimately have to make. My particular case involves family, a best friend and a boss. My decisions though not fit for everyone is what was right for me. It is my hope that my experiences might be of inspiration to you, help you through a difficult time, or help you make a tough decision. Three separate occasions, three completely different instances. All the same ending. Disaster.
Case One: A simple disagreement on a highly often-argued subject, abortion. After finding out someone close to me was pregnant and considering making the hard decision of having an abortion I sought out the advice of someone I trust and knew first hand would understand what I was dealing with.
Individuals can argue it's your right, your body and whatever lame argument you have for your decisions, I get it no need to explain it to me. I'm and entitled to my views, and opinions just as much as you and feel differently. It's not for everyone we all have different beliefs, views, and opinions on the subject it's the reason why it's such a touchy subject. I think different situations regarding this matter apply to each individual. Rape, accidents, whatever everyone has a story.
My personal struggle with this subject is because of my past and my present. I am a personal blessing to my mother’s inability to have children, an adopted child, and an individual who has endured an extremely heartbreaking battle for over 5 years to have children. I have never and likely will never be blessed with such a wonderful honor.
You cannot and never will understand this feeling until you have personally dealt with miscarriages, physical pain, and the emotional burden of knowing in your heart it will never happen for you. It's not holding you responsible for my inability, holding a grudge, or jealousy it's just a feeling.
I find it personally repulsive to watch individuals abuse, and completely disreguard human life, and use abortion as as a form of birth control. I personally know people who have and continue to do this and those who habitually disregard human life and do this shit should just jump of a cliff and die. Okay, a little harsh but do something about it. Be responsible take a extra second to use a fucking condom, take a fucking pill, get a shot, use an IUD just do something. Plain and simply put use protection, take care of your shit be an adult and stop making innocent people suffer for your irresponsibility.
Agree to disagree, ultimately my decision to seek advice rolled around came out, and of course I ended up being the asshole. In the end I stand by decision to seek advice love me or hate me the rest of my life I sought that advice because I care. Not because I'm an asshole.
Whatever your view on the subject, what I have learned from this case is that the ultimate end is making a decision you feel is best, stand by it with conviction, follow your heart, and trust your instincts. Likely, if losing someone you love is your ultimate end then it was probably never worth fighting for to begin with. After all, good or bad, how can making a decision from true love be a bad thing?
Keeping It Gangsta,
~D
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
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